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Saturday, February 28, 2009 ( Nolstagia. @ 10:21 PM )    alright. was browsing through secondary school stuffs, looking at the many pictures i took with different faces, vaguely trying to remember the times we shared ( though there is more bad than good) , and i decided to update the blog. shall type out what i want this time. i kinda miss secondary school life , though it was kinda boring and lifeless in sec 1 , everything started to come into place from sec 2 onwards. people i knew were great , and yet there were some who for some reason could not be bothered about the others because of facial appeal(?) . this has always bugged me especially i do not belong to the aestatic people (hurhur) and hence i began sticking lie glue to the same bunch of people. maybe those times were fun. okay. but shortlived. there came exams and common tests that would always stress me up especially since my parents was always called up about my results. then there were the times that i decided to work a little harder and maybe achieve what i actually needed. there came the holidays that was so highly sought after. when i rethinked about holidays, i probably spent 90% of it alone until i got to know someone and began hanging out with new people. those times were fun. through this friendships were borned , bonds were strengthened and the sense of belonging was instilled. that was the fun part of secondary school. knowing more people and having fun. there came sec 3 . loaded with stress with the academic results the level was putting up. lectures and rantings from principal , naggings from teachers , blah blah. perhaps from that point of time on we were numbed to those. perhaps if we had bothered to listen to those people we might have fared better in those tests we barely got through. and then there came liyue , who i grew close to for a point of time. great person and introduced me to God and His word . those times shared with her will be missed. perhaps if time was stuck in that phase i might actually be a whole lot fun , because as i am sitting here my daily routine is exercise / gym / quiet time and then weekend for service. kinda boring , yes i know. but thats life for me. life for 16 ( soon 17 ) years. those fun times lasted through the entire end of year holidays. with outings and events like the one at escape theme park , christmas events , new year eve and stomping in the streets with a huge clique at 3am in the morning. i miss those times the most . why? it was the only time i felt i was attached to a group of people. not because of looks / popularity , but of character. then the holidays was over and sec 4 started. boy i do not miss this year at all. having loads of quarrells with ( you know who you are ) and i was practically the loner of the class for the whole year. that was the time i learnt to shut my mouth and not speak what is redundant. though i spent times alone walking in school campus from the point of time on, i didnt feel any remorse that i was then isolated because wasnt my life like this all the while? i took it as just another day alone. and pulled through all the way till o levels. then exams were over and class was planning a chalet. all happy like bired set free into the sky. okay , maybe i was hesitant. maybe i didnt want to turn up at all. but , due to certain circumstances i was forced to go ( by a certain person ) and im surprised i actually had some fun there. though most of it is just blindly following a group and doing certain stuffs. and then we said our goodbyes. and it was the day we got our results. the air with a mixed feeling of regret and rejoice , i saw my result slip and emotionlessly walked out of the hall and preceeded with my outing with my few friends. that was the last time i went out with certain people. and then i decieded to start working out in the gym ( i still do now ) just so i have something to commit to. strangely enough this is soon becoming an obsession cos im getting supplements and all. and now im just waiting for poly to start with a few people that happen to end up in the same campus. maybe more , but jus those who cant be bothered with me. well i guess.. i will get to meet more people in poly. long post. just wanted to write out my thoughts about my sec school life. sounds like an emo post but those are true. if you had such a boring sec school life , could you take it? 0 comments |